Posting

Mengepos,mengepos,mengepos...

write to express? write to heal? or write to remind?

When I'm sick of myself, I'll write.
When I writing, I'm sick n getting worst.
The more I give advise, the worst I think I'll be.
Is it true that writing can really heals your feeling?

Huh?!

I can't really see any effect from it plus they've become even worst.
I read the Anne Frank before. She wrote something like
"Sometimes, paper can understand better than human"
Is that true? Ah?? If you don't agree with it,
why am I still writing here?
"I want to improve my english writing skill sir!"
elleh~ yo ko? kecek cam uje demo.
I'm not totally agree or disagree with it.
Because it might could help me a bit. Just like a Panadol.
You just not feeling sick anymore not because you are not sick,
but it's just because the information of sense of sick, can't be
identify by you due to the interrupted of impulse that tells your
brain you are sick! Thiswas what I've learn in form 5 dol! ha3.

I'm sick when I'm writing and I think that I've start to feels
crazy like now.
Laughing alone? Who's the person that always like that? You guest..

You know what.. I don't know who you are,
cause I'm not promoting this blog to the others.
Could be setan who ask me to do this,
and make me don't do my delayed home work.

This was really bad habit of my.
It was really hard for me to get rid of it.
Why? Why? Konapo gilo?
Entahlah. I still can't figure it out.
Is it because I'm too lazy to do something?
Or because there's no good reason,
I mean really good reason just for me to make the work done.
Is it really-really need any better reason to STUDY? SOLAT?
to improve yourself in educational? to keep yourself clean?
to make your life become better.

Why la wey~

I don't know weather I can skate and hockeying back or not,
I still want to play, but I can't.
God have a really tough test for me now.
Maybe It's because that I've think sport can heals me.
I can enjoy life socialize myself in sport.
get along with friends, have a good friends in sport
like there's not other way than that.
So now God has teach me to try something else.
OH! It could be because I forget about God when I'm in sport.
Or I've become too proud of myself when I'm in it.
Could be because I think that as long as I'm in sport
there's no better things that is worth to do than that.

Ya ALLAH!
Please help me ~
I really need to work on myself rite now,
in order to become better Muslim as what you required.
I know that the main purpose we live in Earth is
to serve you. It is not just by solat all the time and doesn't care
about the ummah.
But be responsible in every aspect.
to your religion
urself
ur family
frens
ur studies. lab report. assignment.
etc.

Just because of the only one God.
Lillahi Ta'ala.
It's a simple word to spell and said.
But in order too achieve it? WOW!
Believe me. It was tough dong. REEEALL TOUGH.
Plus you can't even declare like you are like that,
but you are not doing it. It was real big sin dude.
Why are this things happening?
Why can't it be as simple as it suppose to be?
why? mak! kenape mak?
Are you going to blame satan for the sin that
you have commit by yourself? I don't know.
But I still do that. It's SETAN fault.
huu~~
They just doing their job dude!
There's nothing wrong with it to them.
They just keeping their promise to God. That's how it work.

But the problem is you!
What you gonna do with d problems,
d problems is you. (sex pistols,Problems)

You the one who not keeping your promise to God.
Maybe you can't remember the promise that you
have done before, where before you came to earth.

But everything have been stated in quran.
If you claim that you are muslim.
why can't you understand all of the promise that
all of us have made before.
Don't you believe in that Holy Book?
The words of God. It's not come from a
human at all, it's from our creator.
Like a inventor who invent the machine,
the word that he said about it, something about the
maybe a precaution or manual to operate it..
You must believe in that aren't you?
Why? Because he the one who created it.
He know the best about it that the others.

The god know about us really well.
Believe in it. Then your life will become better.
Keep the promise between we and THEM.
Serve him for the best. Don't serve for the satan.
Until it's the end of the world.
Insyallah..

...

I just want to say that I've finished being quarantine today.
It's not really like being quarantine actually, cause we even could go out if we want to.
plus everyday we have been served with free food, and I've got to eat 6 times per day.
for free in about 5 days. Woo-Hoo!

Quiet boring overthere actually, but since I'm go out now. Things becomes more worse i think.
Back to normal life. with the lab report, assignment class, resume.. n I don't know when I going to submit that application form to apply that internship training. Din dah dapat dah pon.
ME? I', not even send it yet.

So retarded..

I can't keep my promise before. Taknak bertangguh? Huh!! Kecek banyak la lu.

Here, I've also discover somethings that, its good for you to have a good friends around.
It really helps when you are in trouble. But at the ends, it seems like you are overused them.
Make them like a slave. Pijak kepala. No!!
I hope that won't happen. Sorry if that really happening. I owe you dong!

I used to be in facebook now. virtual social life.
Why am I keep online n be there? am I didn't have real life anymore?

Am I gonna blame my knee because of that? uh!
I don' really know to put this anymore.
However I really miss my board. And my stick.
But what can I do?
The POWER is not in my hand. I just deserve to try but not the power to decide.
Maybe THEY got another plan for me.

Just keep on walking dong.
The path of life is still there for you to walk through.
It's not it's the end of the they rite?
My heart is still working, I'm still breathing and I'm still a muslim.
Alhamdulillah..
I don't want to be the ungrateful person. Amin..

I've being ridiculous rite now. n I need to stop.

peace out y ol! ciao~ BANZAI!!

in pic:reynolds-3-5-black-orange

kecek dok supo buak!..

Everything is simple to be said rather than just making it to become a reality.

People are love to say anything that they like and even can write anything that they want to write. It doesn't matter as long as it is not againts the akta keselamatan dalam negeri or they'll be arrest by ISA.

Entahlah! But the point is, can the writing could give any benefit or effect to anything else? such as the country,friends,anybody aroundthem,believes.or ect.

It's something that hardly to say cause even me don't rally know how to say about that either.

Today,I finished my 3rd paper for this semester and there's still 2 paper to go.

Actually that was not going so well. I was just hoping that it will going well when I received the result soon. The truth is most of the question have come out on past year exam,but pathetisly to say,I'm not even took a glinse on it before.

Maybe I was just taking too easy on it and got too much waiting (actually the words that I want to say is bertangguh) or delay the time for study for too much. Even now I could write on something.

Tomorrow I'll become 21. One of the properties (haha! that's it's like polymer properties lak) or behavior,worst,bad,syaitan or whatever meaning that refer to not good to refer on this bertangguh;I really want to get rid of it.

I become like this since I was a kid. Sometimes is turn out to be good (Alhamdulillah) and some are doesn,'t. But actually if it still going well, I not really satisfy in it (It's not because that I not bersyukur (thankfull) enough to GOD,but I hate myself to work on that way.

For an example today,I've start to revise my whole lecture note on Process Control last night at 9p.m at Saiful's House. I was just like before,though that it still can be work out and can finished it in one night.For the first 3 hour it is going well but at last it end with I slept while the others are still studying and strunggle for their best for today's paper. Eventually it's end up with I have too much trouble in answering the question but not for them,it's turn out to be so easily.

It was really hard for me to get rid of this behaviour cause I always pretend to don't know how.

It was the ability to control on yourself to force them to do what is suppose to do or to do what is the most important at the right place and the right time. Maybe this is due to the lack of iman of mine. I was too lazy to go to the mosque and have a jemaah together with the other. That why I've become delay and too much taking it easy on the others stuff.

I hope that writingis going to remind me moreon what to do and what to do for myself. Because when I'm writing,it seem that I'll make a list of what is the thing that I've done wrong before and it look like It really need to be working hard for it.

Thare're more thing sthat I would like to improve later on which I don't really know whether it's good or not.It's the ability to tell my feeling to the others honestly. I don't know what is wrong about it, maybe because I too shy,too scared,coward,or myego were too high, or could be that I'm too picky on choosing somebody to become as a friends. Improve my english and my writing.

I'm also wish for a better bless from god and hope that I could apologize to everybody and also everybody could apologize me.

Tomorrow is our official Family Day's at Batu Malimbut sadly I'm not going because I still have to seat for a paper on 4th May,which is next Monday,which is 3 more days,and I'm even start to study on anything yet.

Okaylah! kecek banyk tak guno kalo kecek tak supo buak..

ciao~ peace.

A piece of something in the middle of examination weeks.

Tomorrow the material student will face one of the hardest test of the semester. It's the Process Control~!!
How hard the test is, the materials' student is still manage to study the whole thing in one day. We never know whether it is going to well or not until the result came out next month.

Enough for the exam.

Now I would like to talk a little bit about something happen in Tak Bai, Thailand. The government of Thaksin believe that the people in Southern Thailand is linked to the international terrorist. The truth is the they are just an ordinary villager who want nothing than a better life out from the poverty.This things happen on the October 25,2004.Most people are less acknowledge about it. More than 650 people who die violent there.Every man, mostly teenagers like me have been arrest innocently without any charge.1/2 strip. Laying on the road. Kicked. Shot. Sadly to say that most of them are happening to the muslims. Even most of the are Malay too. Their mother just waited for the dead body at home.

After their son have been caught.Hit till die. They just came-out to the village and show them the pic of the dead body by stamping all the pic off the wall. Some of them without even the picture but just a list of name.

These case have been brought to the UN. About the death of many people there is cause by the military action,but Thaksin have denied it. He said that the death is due to the weak because of their fasting month. I've watch the video,the suffering that they have face is really humaliating. Alhamdulillah thanks God it's not happen here in Malaysia,yet. This is the peace that we need to appreciate and full filling it with something usefull to the religion and nation.

All of these power abuse have been done by the former president of Thailand who is Thaksin Narratiwat. While their people suffer for the oppressed by their own country, he is busy trying to buy Liverpool FC. What a shame! How could he lives in the lives like this. I hope that all he'll pay for the oppression that he have done there.

The other things happen during these incident is all of the muslim woman teacher have been force to take of their scarf@hijab@tudung. Thaksin show low respect on other practice religion.

Actually there's more things that I would to write in here,but due to lack of time we have and the lack of vocab and too much worst grammar that I have used, it's like forcing me to stop writing anymore for today.

I hope that i will take a lesson after watching the video of violent done by the military to the people of Southern Thailand.

I am still sad and unsatisfied here because I still could manage to send the real expression and idea about that incident. Why it is so hard to write a better English.

Oklah! Learn more,practice and used it a lot. ciao~

Declaration

Something that I really wanna ask everybody else, especially me myself(if i can make it happen) .It sound nonsense are they?

Could you claim that you believe in something but you still didn't do what you believe in?
What am I trying to say here is,everybody muslim claim that they are muslim. Commiting sin and they will end up in the hell in the life after that. But why we are still making it happen? even me? keep committing sin?

Claiming that satan is an evil,but still keep doing what satan done and ask you to do so.

We know that if we do something that ask by the religion such as doing good deeds to the other or something else that good and we could end up being in heaven soon. But still, we don't want to do it.

I would to come with something to compare here,even there's somebody say it worse when i 've wrote in answerbag before. You claim that if we hungry than we need to eat, but you still don't do it even you claim it is true. So how is that suppose to be happen? and what will happen to you? if you are not doing something that that you belief is true plus it's really the truth. You'll end up suffer rite?

I'm sorry for blaming you to much on this thing. Actually that mostly are reffeing to me myself.
Hoping that this writing could make me realize what I've done wrong before. It is also due to the too much answerbag for myself.

Screw people on AB. Screw YOU!! myself too!! *sob* *sob*

Writing to become a better writer.

This is like a start. actually i got nothing to write about, but in order to improve my english i need to write something everyday. This is just my theory,which i don't remember where i quote it. I knew that my grammar were really suck and i don't have any idea to improve it anymore, even I have taken many english class before. Actually all of us do rite. Maybe as earlier as the TADIKA.

We are in the middle of the examination week now. But my main core paper haven't start yet now. What keep wondering in my mind now is;
.in order to achieve something,what matters the most?

• your effort
• time taken to study
• or bless from GOD (and mine is ALLAH)

The other things that keep me thinking is, how people who have power think about the safety of the world now? Are the HUMAN RIGHT society or wutsoever stuff really fight for human right? or just the thing that they think is right. This become comflict in me due to the speech of President of Iran Mahmood Ahmadenejaj (not really sure the spelling) in the I-dont-remember-the-name-conference before. He fight for a muslim that have been oppressed around the world especially Palestine. But the other people think that he's just talk about nonsence and just leave the conferrance rudely without listening to what he said first.

UH! thought just want to make simple short writing,but become too much pulak. Enough for just now I think. Need to continue study and make some effort for study so that i could gain some understanding and importantly pahala and bless from ALLAH.

(note: those picture taken when we got PALAPES BOWLING TOURNAMENT at jitra,macam badut,but chill la kan,dah la cam budak solah kluar outing,,hahaha!!)

eDen!

Kita terlalu mengusahakan sesuatu perkara yg kita belum pasti dapat,
tetapi tidak kepada perkara yg pasti dapat apabila diusahakan..

belajar,blajaq,blajor...

up,up and upstairs!!

Jangan makan MAGGI dan minom Coca-Cola.

Kalu nk boikot barangan Israel stat wif all dis simple stuffs first.

Sebenarnye ini yg penyumbang terbesar yg kite tak prasan pon kite buat.
Den dah bronti lame dah makan maggie,anda bile lagi?

-stop KFC
-stop McD
-stop Coca-Cola
-stop using d Nestle product especially Maggi n Nescafe
-susu pekat manis F&N(kalo buat teh tarik)
banyak lagi company besar cam Johnson n Johnson(cosmetik,mediacal,baby stuff)
-kleneex and KOTEX?! u make a decision.. only u can make a diff.
-KIWI kasut? askar berperang sambil support kewangan musuh de ke? bagus.
-20th fox movie? spideman,harry potter n banyak g ah,almost all d movie from hollywoodlahkirenye.
-DISNEY! Kelab disney malaysia.. budak2 pon beri sumbangan.tapi duit dpt kat mane?
-INTEL..mesti intel ke? keje pon nk kat sane. AMD ade ape masalah.den pakai AMD.

Jika masa boleh digostan.

What do wanna do if u have become them rite now?

Now everibadi are going to BLOGG themself.

The women in my Top10 List.

judging others by their outter?

Humankind can't runaway from it,except for blind.
Are you d one? Or never?

Pisau,adalah pembunuh!!

borghok infront!!

why is always about making decision?

Kami sudah hampir dengan Dragon Ball!!!

Got nothing 2 write,but still wanna write sumting like anyone else.