kecek dok supo buak!..

Everything is simple to be said rather than just making it to become a reality.

People are love to say anything that they like and even can write anything that they want to write. It doesn't matter as long as it is not againts the akta keselamatan dalam negeri or they'll be arrest by ISA.

Entahlah! But the point is, can the writing could give any benefit or effect to anything else? such as the country,friends,anybody aroundthem,believes.or ect.

It's something that hardly to say cause even me don't rally know how to say about that either.

Today,I finished my 3rd paper for this semester and there's still 2 paper to go.

Actually that was not going so well. I was just hoping that it will going well when I received the result soon. The truth is most of the question have come out on past year exam,but pathetisly to say,I'm not even took a glinse on it before.

Maybe I was just taking too easy on it and got too much waiting (actually the words that I want to say is bertangguh) or delay the time for study for too much. Even now I could write on something.

Tomorrow I'll become 21. One of the properties (haha! that's it's like polymer properties lak) or behavior,worst,bad,syaitan or whatever meaning that refer to not good to refer on this bertangguh;I really want to get rid of it.

I become like this since I was a kid. Sometimes is turn out to be good (Alhamdulillah) and some are doesn,'t. But actually if it still going well, I not really satisfy in it (It's not because that I not bersyukur (thankfull) enough to GOD,but I hate myself to work on that way.

For an example today,I've start to revise my whole lecture note on Process Control last night at 9p.m at Saiful's House. I was just like before,though that it still can be work out and can finished it in one night.For the first 3 hour it is going well but at last it end with I slept while the others are still studying and strunggle for their best for today's paper. Eventually it's end up with I have too much trouble in answering the question but not for them,it's turn out to be so easily.

It was really hard for me to get rid of this behaviour cause I always pretend to don't know how.

It was the ability to control on yourself to force them to do what is suppose to do or to do what is the most important at the right place and the right time. Maybe this is due to the lack of iman of mine. I was too lazy to go to the mosque and have a jemaah together with the other. That why I've become delay and too much taking it easy on the others stuff.

I hope that writingis going to remind me moreon what to do and what to do for myself. Because when I'm writing,it seem that I'll make a list of what is the thing that I've done wrong before and it look like It really need to be working hard for it.

Thare're more thing sthat I would like to improve later on which I don't really know whether it's good or not.It's the ability to tell my feeling to the others honestly. I don't know what is wrong about it, maybe because I too shy,too scared,coward,or myego were too high, or could be that I'm too picky on choosing somebody to become as a friends. Improve my english and my writing.

I'm also wish for a better bless from god and hope that I could apologize to everybody and also everybody could apologize me.

Tomorrow is our official Family Day's at Batu Malimbut sadly I'm not going because I still have to seat for a paper on 4th May,which is next Monday,which is 3 more days,and I'm even start to study on anything yet.

Okaylah! kecek banyk tak guno kalo kecek tak supo buak..

ciao~ peace.